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FABULOUS I AM 

FAITH 

AND 

BELIEF 

UNTITES

LOVE 

OF 

UNDERSTANDING 

SELF

This is a shared space platform for POSITIVE ONLY individuals who want to… BIG MAC

*BUILD

*INSPIRE

*GROW

*MOTIVATE

*ATTRACT

*CONNECT

Those willing to share their wisdom as well as their guidance &/or resources to help increase your knowledge & understanding of your spiritual inner being.

Gaining awareness to living a happy, healthy life filled with luv, wealth, peace & joy in abundance 

My deepest apologies 🙏

 This is something that has been on my mind more n more lately and weighs on my heart to speak on & express! 

This may be sorta long if you care to read...

Soooo we all kno life isn't always easy peazy… & it Damn sure doesn't make it any better growing up with cruel kids or ones that bully!!!  

Or anyone who stains your brain to think other than who God created YOU to be!  & to know who YOU ARE,  #fabulousIAM 🙏❤💯

But sometimes it takes alot of shit to go through to figure that out.

So I kno I kinda recently posted a meme or something & I quoted " I've said my peace so I'm good " when in all actually nooo I haven't!!! Soooo I'm not 💯 good yet… sure I've asked for forgiveness from the lord, but I never took the time out to apologize 

to anyone I was ever mean to, or well ahhhgggg,  yea that I may have bullied 🥺😪 

I don't even like the damn word,  it kills my inner being knowing that I was once (kinda) considered that word.  (I kno it wasn't looked at as bad as it is NOW) but still,  omg when I see anything of such it angers me to full extent on how can anyone be soooo cruel! 

I ended up being a bully to bully the bullies! I never made fun of anyone who was either handicap or mentally challenged,  that I kno for sure cause I damn sure wasn't wit it.  (Yea maybe few jokes wit the friends type shit I remember) not saying it was right in just saying!

I do very well remember defending the less fortunate more than being a trouble maker, I really wasn't bad,  I was just young n misguided which caused me to make very bad or stupid choices. 

The brain is so crazy how it can remember something so specific but then not remember other "what seemed more important at the time things or issues" 

I 100% remember this specifically! I always wondered what happened to her, where is she in life today? 🤔 

While living in Brick we had to take the big yellow bus to school until you were old enough to drive yourself.  

There was this gal (I won't mention any names) if any of you took the bus from mallard point to brick high n was on the bus with me back in the dayz maybe someone will remember this as well n reach out privately.  (since we all share different memories) anyways I was 1 of the "so called" kool kids (which in all actuality,  ahhhggg there were times I wish I didn't walk the path I have, cause kool doesn't really get you as far as a " not so kool" kid lol,  but I was 1 to do what I wanted anyways, I always sat in the back of the bus. There was this gal,  little petite lil thang, she lived right down the street from the Red Lion, right by her house was her stop.  We all knew her family wasn't well off n ya alot less fortunate than others.  The folks on the bus used to pick on her, throw things in her hair,  spit spit balls at her, u kno abusive kids shit.  she wasn't really good with her hygiene & her hair was not really taken care of or washed enough so she had dandruff & the flakes would be all over her shoulders,  so they made fun of her for that! 

She got completely torn apart each day cause she didn't match THEIR standards! 1st off who in the phuckkkk are you? 

I was NOT havin it!  I told her I'm gonna sit wit you & let 1 of these mother phuckers say 1 word to you while I'm here… I will handle it! 

Obviously I knew they wouldn't. 

That was the whole point,  just let them see me talking to you & they ain't gonna pick on you anymore gal friend. Cause now they kno they have to deal wit me & they didn't want to do that!  I would sit with her on the bus n talk to her, I started writing her notes n she would write me back n pass them to each other in the hallway between classes, JUST SO PPL COULD SEE HER GIVING IT TO ME,  SO SHE WOULDN'T HAVE TO BE HARASSED FOR SIMPLY GOING TO SCHOOL.  I JUST DIDN'T WANT THEM BOTHERING HER ANYMORE.  SUICIDE IS REAL! N WE NEVER KNO WHAT ANYONE ELSE IS GOING THROUGH OR LIVING WITH IN THEIR HOUSEHOLD! 

YOU DON'T PICK ON PPL WHO ARE WEAKER THAN YOU OR DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO STAND UP TO YOU TO PROTECT THEMSELVES. 

We as humans have no right to judge any damn body else… we have to worry about our own self & our own dirty stinkin yards. 

This is all facts 💯 

& the facts that remain the same..

We're all getting older & I'm really starting to realize how quickly our time to ascend is getting closer n closer by the day, shitttt these dayz are moving too damn fast eyhe 😳.   I can assure you I'm definitely not looking to go anywhere anytime soon butttt the fact is none of us do kno when it's our time or when our # gets called. If we did, how differently we would live & that goes for all of us.   

Anyways I do want to say my peace with anyone / everyone before my time comes cause I ain't trying to go meet my father like this… I need to apologize to many!!!

I mean this with the most sincerity from the depths of my inner being, from the bottom of my heart & my loving soul.  ❤🙏💯

Whomever: please hear me: 

Omg I am so soooo soooo freaking sorry to anyone who ever felt any type of uncomfortability, any type of displacement or (bullied in ANY way from anything I ever said or did as a kid during our childhood and/or school years.  

There's no excuse for it besides,  

We were young kids & I was acting out being rebellious cause I had feelings of hurt n pain in my heart. 

I was going through a whole mess of dysfunctions and displacements in my life fighting myself and my own damn demons.  I didn't know how to deal wit it so I guess it was easier to hurt others to not endure my own pain. 

To all of you… I seriously cannot express the love I have for you.  I choose you as my friend, or my acquaintance, either way our energies connected for you to be a part of my life. I appreciate you, at some point in time we experienced sharing this thing called life together ❤. I thank you for being my friends 😊

I don't want to give no bad energy or receive it.. Shitttt I wanna be the free spirit I've always been. 

Happy healthy wealthy n wise! 

So please accept my apologies 

I would be forever grateful 🙏❤🙌💕

I wish everyone nothing butttt luv, peace, happiness, joy, positivity, n a prosperous life full of abundance. 

I want to share my experiences to help build ppl up,  to believe in themselves!  Noooo nooo to tearing down,  we get enough of that from the rest of the world who isn't 1 of US!

Sunday morning... Gratitude

Heylo great mernin to ya fabulous ppl out there.  Happy Sunday!!! 

Let's give thanks to our most high (whomever you consider YOUR GOD) (Knowledge IS power buttt with knowledge of self your unstoppable!

You must learn how to channel in with your conscience & subconscious being. So you can live the life you want to live. 

Being a multi talented artist actress writer & creator for many years I have had my share of 

J.O.B.S. (just over broke shit) & if you use that word or any other words speaking of yourself about being in lack of well then my friend,  please do not complain about it because that's all you will get!) More to complain about. 

Those are the facts. I had to learn over much time, training,  & practice to reboot my brain from being a negative thinker / complainer (pretty much without even realizing it).  It was just what I knew from being around it soooo much) to being positive & seeing the good in any situation instead of the bad 1st. One thing I always knew for sure I was different, always the positive one who did see outside the box, who did want to live her dreams. Instead of living a life of madness which only I am responsible for creating. 

So now instead of chasing a job I knew I had to build my own businesses. 

I was never 1 to go punch a clock or listen to a boss.  I am the boss! 

So I got out, leave to another state, I started over once again buttt this time It was away from home.  I was more mature & was finally able to find my peace within. 

Life around me was changing because my inner being was happy & felt very satisfied. I had also learned there's enough of everything out here in this world for everyone. It's only a state of mind. Knowing your own conscience being. 

THE GOD & CREATOR you are within yourself.  

Healthy eating & living with a positive mind, attitude & gratitude is the way to goooo.  

I did a lil backslide buttt I am ready to come back with full force. 

Because I do want to love the life I live & being a inspiration & help to others is what makes me happy! 

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY! 

It will all come to you when you let it.

Your inner you will love you soooo much

Have a great day folks

Wishing you much peace n many blessings in abundance 2021!

Be fabulous today

#FabulousIAM 

#gratefulheart does create #miracles

starting my vocal... read my stories there 🤗

I looked into doing podcasts & different platforms to share my thoughts,  stories,  writings, information.  

I have come across plenty over the years,  buttt as technology & everything is evolving I never found the right 1 that I felt was user friendly & also able to earn a income from it. I found

Vocal a while ago buttt you had to have a laptop to create a account.  Sure I have a laptop buttt I was in the country & my service wasn't great.  Well I guess they upgraded cause you can create straight from your mobile now which is fabulous! 

Fabulous I am was something I created a few years ago buttt as soooo many things,  it just wasn't time yet. At that time I was creating women empowerment groups to meet up & network to empower each other.  

I was also selecting independent women whom I saw to be a inspiration to others & write about them,  their challenges,  their failures & successes. 

Things were going great,  buttt I guess MY

God still had a few things for me to go through before I could get to the next level. 

Life! A few more curve balls thrown in there,  with much more for me to experience to have better knowledge so I can be able to help another. 

I took a seat in the waaaaay back,

I wasn't working towards any of my real goals.  I was allowing them to slip away because of something so stupid & silly,  definitely not anything to give up a future over. I was going through alot & I wasn't happy because I do know WHO I AM & I know WHO'S I AM! 

HE IS I, I AM HIM! I am not 1 to give up! I 

am a dream chaser & getter. I started questioning myself, am I giving up? 

Creating my own lies to talk myself out of it. 

 Welp It's the beginning of a new year 2021

& I stood up to myself & said noooo I will NOT do this anymore! 

I have to do what makes me happy & what makes me happy is making others happy.  

I am building my fabulous I AM back up.

So I'll be looking for y'all to connect & network.  

Peace luv n happiness 🙏✌❤😅 

https://vocal.media/authors/fabulous-i-am

 

I looked into doing podcasts & different platforms to share my thoughts,  stories,  writings, information.  

I have come across plenty over the years,  buttt as technology & everything is evolving I never found the right 1 that I felt was user friendly & also able to earn a income from it. 

Vocal is something I looked into a while ago buttt you had to have a laptop to create a account.  

I guess they upgraded cause you can create straight from your mobile now which is fabulous! 

Fabulous I am was something I created a few years ago buttt as soooo many things,  it just wasn't time yet. At that time I was creating women empowerment groups to meet up & network to empower each other.  

I was also selecting independent women whom I saw to be a inspiration to others & write about them,  their challenges,  their failures & successes. 

Things were going great,  buttt I guess MY

God still had a few things for me to live through & experience before my time to share. 

YOUR journey belongs to you & yours is special & originally created by YOU for just YOU!!!

You are your own creator.... embrace your creativity, originality, diversity,  & individuality.
Love WHO you are, from the inside out &,  if you don't already,  learn to love the person you are or WHO you have grown to become, 
 Look deep within,  &  love yourself the way NO other WOULD or COULD!!! 


The greatest gift of life....
WHAT an amazing roller coaster & 
WE ALL get to ride! 
This ride has got to be the best.  
It's the tallest, & the fastest. 
The highest peaks & with the lowest drops 
There will be times it seems like it goes tooo fast,  almost as a lightening flash. 
these are the times you want to last,  but now their just memories in the past. 
You will hear the sounds of thunder crash, all awhile the lights will flash.
ppl cry cause humans pass, while the other side they sit n laugh. 

This is how your emotions are cast
There's happy n sad there's good & bad,
There will be great joy even at times you may think you were mad.  
 & precious bliss, even the times you think you've missed.
Stay your upbeat cheerful self & make sure you take care of self...
Don't you know? 
#healthistherealwealth ?


Caution:
This ride might push you through the darkest tunnels 
leaving your lips to scream & mumble 
Then your stomach starts to ache & grumble,  all because your insecure fumbles, leaving your heart crushed & tumbled, Until you finally cave in & crumble.  
You feel like noone seems to care that you are living your worst nightmare
You think back, this was all a dare 
Your in a trance or more of a stare n now your screaming it's dark down there
These upside down n humongous loops
Spinning round n round like holla hoops

You don't kno how you'll make it through
Just keep the faith n you'll be kool 😁✌

You might NOT know how you will make it through.  These upside down & humongous hoops
Just keep the faith & you'll

   
Warning: 
You have to work to change your thinking, as  you kno it sure is stinking... 
The right decision wouldn't leave you drinking 
That shit there will leave you sinking 
N that's not a life for a healthy living.  






forever, you don't see any chance of it ever getting better. 




eeing the light. It can have you going through the roughest & toughest twists, & turns, that will spin you dizzy.  




The corkscrews will have you twisting through, 

 this will pass 
you have to go through just 
so you can make it across the top just so you can get to the other side.  
Your mind can bear to even imagine this experience butt.... GUESS WHAT? 
YOU didn't realize you were already standing in the line. 
Say your prayers before your leave
 & always remember to give THANKS for all the beautiful blessings that were specifically designed for just YOU.  






The gift of life will take you on the biggest, fastest, highest, ride with the most spins,  turns, corkscrews & 
& enjoy the biggest & baddest roller coaster ride   Life is the best roller coaster you will ever ride on... 
It might bring you up before it drops you down, speed you up before it slows you down. Take you through a dark twisted tunnel is just a test to see if you crumble. 


& a bit of my roller coaster ride  and how it ended up being a road trip pretty much around the entire United States.  Throughput my travels I enjoyed a bit of 4 different states while traveling around the US. I have went all four seasons of the weather. It was hot, then it was cold, then others were warm & some others were chilly & breezy.  
Drove through snow & ice, with a few inches on the ground & the next was a beautiful sunny day for the beach.  I got to explore various terrains which I had never been through in my 47 yrs here on this earth,  I can say I have been a traveler for as long as I can remember... & I love each passing phase of my journeys.  They weren't ALL good, & weren't ALL bad either.  
Life is what WE make it, I agree with Forrest Gump momma.  
Life is like a box of chocolates,  YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR GONNA GET.  
You cannot have 1 without the other.  
We must have good, with the bad,  as darkness & light.  The sun & the moon.  It's all about how the stars in our great big galaxy align.  
There is always balance and life is gonna happen no matter what.  So it's the way we react to a situation at that specific time which will determine your later days to come.  What matters is how you deal with it,  
We are ALL product of what we have absorbed as children,  & in yrs of growing & learning.  
We are kings & queens,  prince's & princesses. 
God will take us through our trials & tribulations to help us gain knowledge,  wisdom,  & understanding that teaches us how to deal with that situation if it ever comes across our path again.  
There are no rules,  YOUR RULES are the only 1s that apply to you personally.  
Just as there aren't any guarantees in life except to die.  Nothing is permanent 
& everything in this life is ONLY temporary.  

Success is NOT a destination, BUT RATHER YOUR OWN journey through life. What is success? Who defines your success? I know people who believe success comes from a certain amount of a dollars you have in your bank account.

& a bit of my roller coaster ride  and how it ended up being a road trip pretty much around the entire United States.  Throughput my travels I enjoyed a bit of 4 different states while traveling around the US. I have went all four seasons of the weather. It was hot, then it was cold, then others were warm & some others were chilly & breezy.  
Drove through snow & ice, with a few inches on the ground & the next was a beautiful sunny day for the beach.  I got to explore various terrains which I had never been through in my 47 yrs here on this earth,  I can say I have been a traveler for as long as I can remember... & I love each passin