July 14th 2023 

This was a great experience for me I had the pleasure of interviewing some FABULOUS women at this feminine ascension market in St Petersburg Florida. The host & coordinator Tracy Penokie holds these events & puts them together once a month to female collective entrepreneurs. These events are awesome, there was a female DJ spinnin some musik that was absolutely amazing & totally fir the energy of the event. The vendors are all some creative artists who create their own crafts to either sell them online or to attend street markets as such to sell their products. The entire event is full of humans who want to do better for humanity filled with peace love & happiness. There is a guy who was actually writing on the ground with street chalk....LOVE. It was a great time as I also had the pleasure of learning of each one of these women, how they got into their craft, and also about their amazing products. Everyone is in tune with each other because we all share the same understanding THAT WE ARE ALL 1. 

Here is my YOUTUBE channel & a look into what it feels like to have a great vibe where everyone is out for PEACE. No hatred, no drama or chaos. Just pure love of 1 another & accepting others as they are. 

I'm excited for the next one. 

but if you can be kind to like, share, subscribe to my channel you will get to see allot more to come your way.    

http;//www.youtube.com/@fabulousIAM

Fabulous I AM

 Welcome to my blog I would like to start by saying thank you for taking the time out of your day & busy schedule to give my stories a read.  Greatly appreciated. 

I came up with Fabulous I AM quite a few years ago, I also came up with the acronym for Fabulous as :

Faith 

And

Belief

Unites 

Love

Of 

Understanding 

Self 

(Once you get a clear understanding of WHO you are,  the possibilities are limitless) 

Alot has happened in this past years that I do not wish to dwell on, but here we are today,  I am here to speak on it.  There was so much more of life's issues I had to go through in order to be able to be where I am today.  I am here & i know my purpose,  which is to guide the way to enlighten others & inspire them to live their best life ever.  

I have always been a multi talented creator with plenty of value to offer you & the marketplace. I just wasn't ready yet. Now I am finally ready to take that leap, breaking out of my comfort zone & also break my fears  (fears = false evidence appears real) so I can do what I was put on this earth to do.

There's no such thing as a coincidence & there's also time & place for everything....

Story time:  

This year has been a year so far with all the full moons & the shifts in the universe.  I can only speak on my own self because that is all it only is.... 1 being = SELF. 

It seems as more & more people are beginning to wake up & realize their state of consciousness, which is a great thing.  I actually had a kundalini awakening on (Friday July 13th 2012)(the day my life changed forever) (this past Thursday was my 11 year anniversary) the number 11 is a very significant number to me also.  At the time of this major event happening in my life,  I couldn't explain it. All I knew was I touched my 3rd eye,  but this was something sooo extreme, I couldn't put into words.  I just know the downloads were so powerful & very overwhelming.  

For me to share this experience with anyone they all just thought I was crazy or on some hallucinogenic drugs, THIS WAS SO REAL & UNLIKE ANYTHING I'VE EVER EXPERIENCED BEFORE.  This has stayed on my mind for all these years because it was so drastic.  1 of the major things in it was for me to get outta there.  To leave Jersey & go start over elsewhere.  So I did,  I mean really,  how can I NOT listen when God was speaking directly to me... ?  I was also shown all my dreams would come true & all my businesses would come alive at the same time,  only thing,  I had to leave there. I came to Florida. 

Now fast forward.... 11 years later.  I ended up meeting up with my twin flame 🔥.  (Will speak on that in another story)

So with all that's going on in the universe, that happens... what that does for those of you who don't know... it will enlighten you to go on your own journey of your spiritual awakening. OMG something else unlike anything else I've ever experienced in my life.  All for good of course. It causes you to look deep inside yourself & heal all your past traumas, hurts, pains,  of your past.  All so you can embrace your new life.  I cannot go into a new positive life living with all those past traumas unhealed. This awakening has been going on for about the last 3 months. It has taught me to love myself unconditionally.  

It's Time to connect

FABULOUS I AM 

FAITH 

AND 

BELIEF 

UNTITES

LOVE 

OF 

UNDERSTANDING 

SELF

This is a shared space platform for POSITIVE ONLY individuals who want to… BIG MAC

*BUILD

*INSPIRE

*GROW

*MOTIVATE

*ATTRACT

*CONNECT

Those willing to share their wisdom as well as their guidance &/or resources to help increase your knowledge & understanding of your spiritual inner being.

Gaining awareness to living a happy, healthy life filled with luv, wealth, peace & joy in abundance 

My deepest apologies 🙏

 This is something that has been on my mind more n more lately and weighs on my heart to speak on & express! 

This may be sorta long if you care to read...

Soooo we all kno life isn't always easy peazy… & it Damn sure doesn't make it any better growing up with cruel kids or ones that bully!!!  

Or anyone who stains your brain to think other than who God created YOU to be!  & to know who YOU ARE,  #fabulousIAM 🙏❤💯

But sometimes it takes alot of shit to go through to figure that out.

So I kno I kinda recently posted a meme or something & I quoted " I've said my peace so I'm good " when in all actually nooo I haven't!!! Soooo I'm not 💯 good yet… sure I've asked for forgiveness from the lord, but I never took the time out to apologize 

to anyone I was ever mean to, or well ahhhgggg,  yea that I may have bullied 🥺😪 

I don't even like the damn word,  it kills my inner being knowing that I was once (kinda) considered that word.  (I kno it wasn't looked at as bad as it is NOW) but still,  omg when I see anything of such it angers me to full extent on how can anyone be soooo cruel! 

I ended up being a bully to bully the bullies! I never made fun of anyone who was either handicap or mentally challenged,  that I kno for sure cause I damn sure wasn't wit it.  (Yea maybe few jokes wit the friends type shit I remember) not saying it was right in just saying!

I do very well remember defending the less fortunate more than being a trouble maker, I really wasn't bad,  I was just young n misguided which caused me to make very bad or stupid choices. 

The brain is so crazy how it can remember something so specific but then not remember other "what seemed more important at the time things or issues" 

I 100% remember this specifically! I always wondered what happened to her, where is she in life today? 🤔 

While living in Brick we had to take the big yellow bus to school until you were old enough to drive yourself.  

There was this gal (I won't mention any names) if any of you took the bus from mallard point to brick high n was on the bus with me back in the dayz maybe someone will remember this as well n reach out privately.  (since we all share different memories) anyways I was 1 of the "so called" kool kids (which in all actuality,  ahhhggg there were times I wish I didn't walk the path I have, cause kool doesn't really get you as far as a " not so kool" kid lol,  but I was 1 to do what I wanted anyways, I always sat in the back of the bus. There was this gal,  little petite lil thang, she lived right down the street from the Red Lion, right by her house was her stop.  We all knew her family wasn't well off n ya alot less fortunate than others.  The folks on the bus used to pick on her, throw things in her hair,  spit spit balls at her, u kno abusive kids shit.  she wasn't really good with her hygiene & her hair was not really taken care of or washed enough so she had dandruff & the flakes would be all over her shoulders,  so they made fun of her for that! 

She got completely torn apart each day cause she didn't match THEIR standards! 1st off who in the phuckkkk are you? 

I was NOT havin it!  I told her I'm gonna sit wit you & let 1 of these mother phuckers say 1 word to you while I'm here… I will handle it! 

Obviously I knew they wouldn't. 

That was the whole point,  just let them see me talking to you & they ain't gonna pick on you anymore gal friend. Cause now they kno they have to deal wit me & they didn't want to do that!  I would sit with her on the bus n talk to her, I started writing her notes n she would write me back n pass them to each other in the hallway between classes, JUST SO PPL COULD SEE HER GIVING IT TO ME,  SO SHE WOULDN'T HAVE TO BE HARASSED FOR SIMPLY GOING TO SCHOOL.  I JUST DIDN'T WANT THEM BOTHERING HER ANYMORE.  SUICIDE IS REAL! N WE NEVER KNO WHAT ANYONE ELSE IS GOING THROUGH OR LIVING WITH IN THEIR HOUSEHOLD! 

YOU DON'T PICK ON PPL WHO ARE WEAKER THAN YOU OR DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO STAND UP TO YOU TO PROTECT THEMSELVES. 

We as humans have no right to judge any damn body else… we have to worry about our own self & our own dirty stinkin yards. 

This is all facts 💯 

& the facts that remain the same..

We're all getting older & I'm really starting to realize how quickly our time to ascend is getting closer n closer by the day, shitttt these dayz are moving too damn fast eyhe 😳.   I can assure you I'm definitely not looking to go anywhere anytime soon butttt the fact is none of us do kno when it's our time or when our # gets called. If we did, how differently we would live & that goes for all of us.   

Anyways I do want to say my peace with anyone / everyone before my time comes cause I ain't trying to go meet my father like this… I need to apologize to many!!!

I mean this with the most sincerity from the depths of my inner being, from the bottom of my heart & my loving soul.  ❤🙏💯

Whomever: please hear me: 

Omg I am so soooo soooo freaking sorry to anyone who ever felt any type of uncomfortability, any type of displacement or (bullied in ANY way from anything I ever said or did as a kid during our childhood and/or school years.  

There's no excuse for it besides,  

We were young kids & I was acting out being rebellious cause I had feelings of hurt n pain in my heart. 

I was going through a whole mess of dysfunctions and displacements in my life fighting myself and my own damn demons.  I didn't know how to deal wit it so I guess it was easier to hurt others to not endure my own pain. 

To all of you… I seriously cannot express the love I have for you.  I choose you as my friend, or my acquaintance, either way our energies connected for you to be a part of my life. I appreciate you, at some point in time we experienced sharing this thing called life together ❤. I thank you for being my friends 😊

I don't want to give no bad energy or receive it.. Shitttt I wanna be the free spirit I've always been. 

Happy healthy wealthy n wise! 

So please accept my apologies 

I would be forever grateful 🙏❤🙌💕

I wish everyone nothing butttt luv, peace, happiness, joy, positivity, n a prosperous life full of abundance. 

I want to share my experiences to help build ppl up,  to believe in themselves!  Noooo nooo to tearing down,  we get enough of that from the rest of the world who isn't 1 of US!

Sunday morning... Gratitude

Heylo great mernin to ya fabulous ppl out there.  Happy Sunday!!! 

Let's give thanks to our most high (whomever you consider YOUR GOD) (Knowledge IS power buttt with knowledge of self your unstoppable!

You must learn how to channel in with your conscience & subconscious being. So you can live the life you want to live. 

Being a multi talented artist actress writer & creator for many years I have had my share of 

J.O.B.S. (just over broke shit) & if you use that word or any other words speaking of yourself about being in lack of well then my friend,  please do not complain about it because that's all you will get!) More to complain about. 

Those are the facts. I had to learn over much time, training,  & practice to reboot my brain from being a negative thinker / complainer (pretty much without even realizing it).  It was just what I knew from being around it soooo much) to being positive & seeing the good in any situation instead of the bad 1st. One thing I always knew for sure I was different, always the positive one who did see outside the box, who did want to live her dreams. Instead of living a life of madness which only I am responsible for creating. 

So now instead of chasing a job I knew I had to build my own businesses. 

I was never 1 to go punch a clock or listen to a boss.  I am the boss! 

So I got out, leave to another state, I started over once again buttt this time It was away from home.  I was more mature & was finally able to find my peace within. 

Life around me was changing because my inner being was happy & felt very satisfied. I had also learned there's enough of everything out here in this world for everyone. It's only a state of mind. Knowing your own conscience being. 

THE GOD & CREATOR you are within yourself.  

Healthy eating & living with a positive mind, attitude & gratitude is the way to goooo.  

I did a lil backslide buttt I am ready to come back with full force. 

Because I do want to love the life I live & being a inspiration & help to others is what makes me happy! 

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY! 

It will all come to you when you let it.

Your inner you will love you soooo much

Have a great day folks

Wishing you much peace n many blessings in abundance 2021!

Be fabulous today

#FabulousIAM 

#gratefulheart does create #miracles

starting my vocal... read my stories there 🤗

I looked into doing podcasts & different platforms to share my thoughts,  stories,  writings, information.  

I have come across plenty over the years,  buttt as technology & everything is evolving I never found the right 1 that I felt was user friendly & also able to earn a income from it. I found

Vocal a while ago buttt you had to have a laptop to create a account.  Sure I have a laptop buttt I was in the country & my service wasn't great.  Well I guess they upgraded cause you can create straight from your mobile now which is fabulous! 

Fabulous I am was something I created a few years ago buttt as soooo many things,  it just wasn't time yet. At that time I was creating women empowerment groups to meet up & network to empower each other.  

I was also selecting independent women whom I saw to be a inspiration to others & write about them,  their challenges,  their failures & successes. 

Things were going great,  buttt I guess MY

God still had a few things for me to go through before I could get to the next level. 

Life! A few more curve balls thrown in there,  with much more for me to experience to have better knowledge so I can be able to help another. 

I took a seat in the waaaaay back,

I wasn't working towards any of my real goals.  I was allowing them to slip away because of something so stupid & silly,  definitely not anything to give up a future over. I was going through alot & I wasn't happy because I do know WHO I AM & I know WHO'S I AM! 

HE IS I, I AM HIM! I am not 1 to give up! I 

am a dream chaser & getter. I started questioning myself, am I giving up? 

Creating my own lies to talk myself out of it. 

 Welp It's the beginning of a new year 2021

& I stood up to myself & said noooo I will NOT do this anymore! 

I have to do what makes me happy & what makes me happy is making others happy.  

I am building my fabulous I AM back up.

So I'll be looking for y'all to connect & network.  

Peace luv n happiness 🙏✌❤😅 

https://vocal.media/authors/fabulous-i-am

 

I looked into doing podcasts & different platforms to share my thoughts,  stories,  writings, information.  

I have come across plenty over the years,  buttt as technology & everything is evolving I never found the right 1 that I felt was user friendly & also able to earn a income from it. 

Vocal is something I looked into a while ago buttt you had to have a laptop to create a account.  

I guess they upgraded cause you can create straight from your mobile now which is fabulous! 

Fabulous I am was something I created a few years ago buttt as soooo many things,  it just wasn't time yet. At that time I was creating women empowerment groups to meet up & network to empower each other.  

I was also selecting independent women whom I saw to be a inspiration to others & write about them,  their challenges,  their failures & successes. 

Things were going great,  buttt I guess MY

God still had a few things for me to live through & experience before my time to share.